Ok... so it's Sunday 27th January today. This week I have done totally rubbish!!
Im blaming it on redundancies, though I do know that nobody forced me to comfort eat. So Tuesday, we found out there would be redundancies to be made on Thursday and I was fine with that. But then Wednesday evening I talked myself (and my boyfriend) into having takeaway from the fish and chip shop just incase it was the last one we could afford for a while.
Luckily, I wasn't made redundant on Thursday, but 11 of my colleagues were so it was quite an emotional day and I slipped back into my old lunch routine of crisps and chocolate. :/ The dinner time the other half was out and I had takeaway again... this time chicken kebab, cheesy chis and southern fried chicken. And it sort of continued from there really, with Friday being an evening of drunkenness where I consumed half a sloppy Joe pizza, a bottle of wine, 3 cadbury caramel bars and a creme egg. Very naughty. So much for being allowed a treat but not overdoing it. I just passed it all off as a bad week and decided in my head it was okay and acceptable. Well, today I have decided it is NOT acceptable. I shan't accept binge eating as a way to make things better because it doesn't. I have very very lazy since eating all that and angry at myself for it. The worst thing of all. I don't even remember enjoying it? That's what makes this so confusing, and I'm sure others find the same. Food is nice while your having it but then say an hour later, you don't even feel the joy of the tastes anymore and if you have over consumed then you put weight on and it feels like its for nothing. But you can't break the cycle, you are used to the feeling of being full, anything else just feels unnatural.
So, I'm starting again tomorrow, week 4 aiming for the same loss as week 1. I won't be giving up like all the times before. I've undone 2 weeks worth of effort in the space of 2/3 days. This isn't going to be easy but things that are worth having never are. I'm hoping that I will love my new body even more because of the struggle to get there.
Onwards and downwards...
Sunday 27 January 2013
Wednesday 16 January 2013
Annoying!!
I have put on 0.2 lbs on Wednesday morning!
I know I'm going to fluctuate a bit but I just want it to go down all the time. All I had at work because of this was a cuppa soup and an apple (a total of 164 calories), weighed myself when I got home and had put on a whole 2lbs more! Erm... what!?!
How does that even happen?
Best crack on and do some exercise this week, I am determined now that I won't allow it to beat me.
Its the journey that counts, not how fast you go or the hurdles you have to beat, but the fact you stay in the race and finish.
I know I'm going to fluctuate a bit but I just want it to go down all the time. All I had at work because of this was a cuppa soup and an apple (a total of 164 calories), weighed myself when I got home and had put on a whole 2lbs more! Erm... what!?!
How does that even happen?
Best crack on and do some exercise this week, I am determined now that I won't allow it to beat me.
Its the journey that counts, not how fast you go or the hurdles you have to beat, but the fact you stay in the race and finish.
The Easy First Week
As with most new ideas and goals, the first few days/weeks are usually the easiest because you are so fired up and you have in your mind all the greatness yet to be achieved, how people will treat you differently because you will be more beautiful and graceful once you are lighter.
The first couple of days, people at work were a bit dubious that I would actually stick to this and thought the office cakes and biscuits would tempt me before Monday was out, but I surprised them all and for the whole week didn't cave when sausage sandwiches were ordered (especially after I learnt a sausage is 250 calories!) and I didn't moan when I had to grow up from my childish tea ways and finally have tea with no sugar (although by Tuesday I had switched to lemongrass and ginger tea at 0 calories to save my milk calories for something more filling).
By Wednesday I was 1.8lbs lighter, Thursday I had the healthier takeaway option of chicken burger and chips (no battered sausage at 450cals for me!) and on Friday I really took control of my food intake because I knew that we were going to see Les Mis (if you havent seen it, DO!) and I had a small popcorn. Saturday I was going to go to the gym but decided to kill two birds with one stone by working out whilst also cleaning my house... half an hour of hoovering gets rid of 150 calories and all the dust bunnies. The Sunday me and my partner took a stroll into town and stopped in at a cafe. This was difficult for me because I just wanted hot chocolate with marshmallows and cream as normal, and a little slice of carrot cake to top it off... but alas, I took the slimmers decision as I didn't want to fail at the first real hurdle, so I went for the leek and potato soup at 150 calories, and actually felt much better for it and it was actually rather yummy!
So, with week one over with my efforts had paid off. I am now 4lbs lighter and well on my way to the perfect dream life with the feeling that now I can achieve anything I set my mind to! :)
Onwards and downwards!
The first couple of days, people at work were a bit dubious that I would actually stick to this and thought the office cakes and biscuits would tempt me before Monday was out, but I surprised them all and for the whole week didn't cave when sausage sandwiches were ordered (especially after I learnt a sausage is 250 calories!) and I didn't moan when I had to grow up from my childish tea ways and finally have tea with no sugar (although by Tuesday I had switched to lemongrass and ginger tea at 0 calories to save my milk calories for something more filling).
By Wednesday I was 1.8lbs lighter, Thursday I had the healthier takeaway option of chicken burger and chips (no battered sausage at 450cals for me!) and on Friday I really took control of my food intake because I knew that we were going to see Les Mis (if you havent seen it, DO!) and I had a small popcorn. Saturday I was going to go to the gym but decided to kill two birds with one stone by working out whilst also cleaning my house... half an hour of hoovering gets rid of 150 calories and all the dust bunnies. The Sunday me and my partner took a stroll into town and stopped in at a cafe. This was difficult for me because I just wanted hot chocolate with marshmallows and cream as normal, and a little slice of carrot cake to top it off... but alas, I took the slimmers decision as I didn't want to fail at the first real hurdle, so I went for the leek and potato soup at 150 calories, and actually felt much better for it and it was actually rather yummy!
So, with week one over with my efforts had paid off. I am now 4lbs lighter and well on my way to the perfect dream life with the feeling that now I can achieve anything I set my mind to! :)
Onwards and downwards!
Sunday 13 January 2013
The Beginning
So... January 7th 2013... Not a usual day to start your New Year resolution, but then again, I'm not normally one to follow the norm.
I have decided after years of people hounding me to lose weight (and me rebelling against them) I am finally old enough and wise enough to do this properly. But stick to it I think I need to do a complete life overhaul. So, from this day, I shall not only be on the path to my ideal weight, (10 stone 7lbs if you're asking! Which is up for revision at a later date, I just dont want to scare myself with the unachievable!) but shall also be a better person/girlfriend/employee!! I have already started this my clearing out the bedroom and throwing a lot of stuff away. Depressingly, this as also forced me to put 80% of my clothes in hiding until I can fit into them again, but alas that day shall arrive (soon I hope!).
I am going to use an app on my iPhone to record my calorie intake (without any lies) and also any exercise I do. Although, I have decided that I am very unfit and therefore won't do any proper crazy exercise until about 2 weeks in because I want to stick at it this time and not tire myself of it on the first day.
According to the websites I require around 2,200 calories a day to stay the same. Initially, I am going to have to focus on keeping the calories down because I have a desk job and therefore am quite like a sloth because I dont move. I have set myself a target of 1270 daily calories. By reducing my calories by around 1000 this should mean that I would lose 2lb per week as each 500 cals per day reduction equals a pound a week.
So... here we go!! This is the day my life changes!
Start Weight: 16stone 9lb (233lb)
BMI: 38.8
Goal weight 1: 10 stone 7lb
Advisory Weight for 5ft 5 female: Around 9stone
I have decided after years of people hounding me to lose weight (and me rebelling against them) I am finally old enough and wise enough to do this properly. But stick to it I think I need to do a complete life overhaul. So, from this day, I shall not only be on the path to my ideal weight, (10 stone 7lbs if you're asking! Which is up for revision at a later date, I just dont want to scare myself with the unachievable!) but shall also be a better person/girlfriend/employee!! I have already started this my clearing out the bedroom and throwing a lot of stuff away. Depressingly, this as also forced me to put 80% of my clothes in hiding until I can fit into them again, but alas that day shall arrive (soon I hope!).
I am going to use an app on my iPhone to record my calorie intake (without any lies) and also any exercise I do. Although, I have decided that I am very unfit and therefore won't do any proper crazy exercise until about 2 weeks in because I want to stick at it this time and not tire myself of it on the first day.
According to the websites I require around 2,200 calories a day to stay the same. Initially, I am going to have to focus on keeping the calories down because I have a desk job and therefore am quite like a sloth because I dont move. I have set myself a target of 1270 daily calories. By reducing my calories by around 1000 this should mean that I would lose 2lb per week as each 500 cals per day reduction equals a pound a week.
So... here we go!! This is the day my life changes!
Start Weight: 16stone 9lb (233lb)
BMI: 38.8
Goal weight 1: 10 stone 7lb
Advisory Weight for 5ft 5 female: Around 9stone
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